Autism Speaks Speaks for itself

In preparation for my panel later this week I’ve been combing the interwebs looking to see what’s out there in terms of assisting autistic adults with job placement. And then I have to take breaks because it’s not great. I’ve been reaching out to autism organizations that claim to help autistic people get jobs. From […]

Safety dance

Yesterday Harry and I went to see Everything Everywhere All of The Time at The Alamo in Brooklyn. It’s so great in so many ways. Think The Joy Luck Club meets The Matrix. I cried even. The message was extra special because I got to watch it with someone who for me embodies the core […]

Rebuilding year

I’m having a rebuilding year. It’s something I have to remind myself of. By the end of 2020, I was really at the top of my game when it came to adulting tasks and creativity. I could read about chaos theory while caramelizing onions and then write this poetic prose stuff that broke my own […]

Next time

Precocious kids are lonely kids. We try saying the things we feel to see if anyone else feels them and we get weird looks and silence. We bottle it up and try to play along and wonder why everything that was ever meant to be satisfying just isn’t. We’re wrestling with a lot and (unless […]

I don’t look talk like I’m from around here

So part of the journey of self-exploration has been in getting to witness the autistic diaspora. When autism is discussed in a vacuum, rarely does ethnicity come into play. Like most things, autism is discussed from a white place. A male place. A privileged place. A parental place. A neurotypical place. But the great thing […]

What’s the frequency, Kenneth?

On Monday morning, Andrea and Mikey did something that happens to me with regular frequency. I told them there was no way I could ever waitress. I wouldn’t be able to hear people or take orders or make eye contact. They dismissed it out of hand and said I’d probably be really good at it. […]

Steady, as she goes

To contextualize what I’ve been battling these past few months, I guess you’d have to know how bad things can get. Neglect, illness, physical and mental deterioration, and suicide attempts. I’m an adult autistic who wants to live independently. I’m walking on a high wire without a safety net. I do it well enough to […]

The struggle, she is real

When I was still a little kid, some people in my family started showing signs of illness and my mother drove herself insane looking for answers. I worry about going off the edge the way that she did. She started reading the Bible. Then keeping a prayer candle lit 24 hours a day, unattended. Then […]