My baby takes the morning train

Tyler and I got to talking on Friday about his brothers and their relationships. The responsibility they take and the roles they play. The enigmas that exist. How the outside brother in whatever iteration can never really understand how the other two get along so well and what bonds them. Nikola talks about his brothers […]

Let’s hear it for the boy

It’s 4:38. I’ve just gotten home and taken my sleeping pill. Let’s see what I bang out before sleepy time. I have a beach date tomorrow and I’ve gotta be bright eyed and bushy tailed. I was *supposed* to go dancing tonight. I cut my hair. Got dolled up. Put on a face. But I […]

On the way

Stuff I talked about with Tyler yesterday while hanging around the LES (non-exhaustive list): • John Steinbeck’s letter writing• museums and memorials in the D.C. area• Rage Against The Machine• what it’s like to be queen of a mental hospital ward• Revel scooters• brother stuff• band stuff• movies• my writing• Samuel Fuller Stuff I refused […]

I’m happiest when…

It’s after close at Barbs. Nikola is behind the bar playing afro beats. Travis, Ritchie and I are on the other side. Travis asks Nikola to play “Happiness” by The 1975. He’s been listening on headphones all night. Nikola cues it up. It sounds so good. I’ve only heard it on my computer up to […]

Surf City

Beach day. Beach days are extensive. They require provisions and equipment. Some mode of transportation. Sun screen. A will to persist with grit in one’s teeth. But this time I got to flirt with the cutest boy. Kevin. The perfect curly brown hair. The most darling smile Maybe 26. Super sweet. 100% gay. He was […]

Brooklyn Roads

I knew two things about today before today began: My hair was in transition; and Beisbol with Tyler. The hair: blue. Bob-ish. I’d hacked away at it in the shower two days ago. You live long enough with the same haircut and you get a feel for it. I keep scissors in the shower for […]

In a Lynch

Tyler tells me before the movie that he won’t be able to pay for my ticket but he can buy me popcorn. So I get my own ticket and it turns up he bought two, I was just supposed to know to reimburse him. So we stand outside the theater hoping someone will need a […]

Here comes the sun

Harry and I went to the city. I had returns at Zara. I hate returns. It gives me agita. I feel like I’m inconveniencing people to get my money back. But it was made easier by having Harry there with me. On the way to Zara we stopped at Trader Joe’s and got a baguette, […]

Part of the band

I know. I know. I said no bar hangs this month. But there are white rabbits. And white rabbits overrule intentions. Tyler gave me a book to read. Paul Auster’s The New York Trilogy. Detective novellas that stirred writerly yearnings I’ve been trying to access for over a year now when I asked everyone for […]