June 10, 2021 One foot in front of the other It’s October 2018 and I’m cold, laying on a futon in Crown Heights, trying to go to sleep. I’m uncomfortable because the futon has…
June 6, 2021 Oh boy Just a couple of thoughts. Unrelated. 1. It’s fun being charismatic and commanding attention. What’s not great is when you’re around others who really…
June 5, 2021 Take me to church Last night:King Tai and Superpower with Andrea. I told her my theory of Crown Heights as Middle Earth and who is who. I got…
May 30, 2021 She lays down We’re not out of the woods quite yet, but we’re making headway. Enough that I can look back with some clarity. Things are good…
May 26, 2021 Notes from Elana, May 2021 Have patience Know when the fire works for you and know when it burns you Patience will bloom in time If we push, we…
May 19, 2021 Today I don’t feel like doing anything I was listening to Talib Kweli’s podcast featuring Fat Joe yesterday. Fat Joe talked about having to sit in jail for four months and…
May 9, 2021 I’ll melt with you I woke up this morning from my second dream about being a secret fighter in a revolution that takes place somewhere in Southeast Asia….
April 5, 2021 I heard you all the way from here It’s 64 degrees outside today and, if you were here in my room, you’d think it was Mardi Gras. Regular people celebrate with noise….
February 26, 2021 This is how it starts 02.26.2016: The 1975 came out with their second album entitled I Love It When You Sleep For You Are So Beautiful Yet Unaware Of…
February 18, 2021 Random shocks: local optimums and getting unstuck It’s a snow day. And I was feeling stuck…until I saw Matty Healy’s Instagram stories that included Brian Eno’s deck of Oblique Strategies: Here’s…
February 18, 2021 Intuition: what almost killed the cat and what’s bringing her back Intuition is a funny thing. You’d think it would make life easier, but it’s not always the case. I remember being little and getting…
February 13, 2021 Here am I encased inside a hollow shell February 12th. A year to the day since I broke up with J. I didn’t even flinch. Or look back. I patched things up…at…
February 2, 2021 It is a good night for ghosts I woke up to a blizzard this morning. My first ever. Until you’ve lived in snow, you don’t know how quiet it can be….
January 28, 2021 The forum The search for sentient life, if I may call it that, is the result of connection so real and so rewarding that I’ve become…
December 29, 2020 2020: a story in song View this post on Instagram A post shared by VA (@vene_la_green_eyez) A story compiled from the life I lived this year and the lessons…
December 27, 2020 If you make sure you’re connected, the writing’s on the wall Tl; dr: I went to a fun party. But this isn’t about the party. It’s about how I interact with the world. I’m never…
December 18, 2020 You’ve gotta open up your eyes to see Snakes shed skin when they outgrow it. But the process of shedding also helps to remove harmful parasites. I have shed my exterior many…
December 2, 2020 Viva la vida Can you sense your destiny? I think for most people this isn’t a question they ponder. I think for some people, delusion plays a…
October 30, 2020 In times when we don’t know I finished The Queen’s Gambit. I loved it. I don’t know about chess, but it was engaging. I didn’t sleep well last night. Nothing…
October 12, 2020 Everything’s alright I’m watching a scary movie in the middle of a rainy day, in flannel pajamas. It’s The Haunting of Bly House, which is an…
August 26, 2020 But I know better I want to write about this in a way that is honest. You need to know that I knew better from the first night…
August 24, 2020 I am thinking it’s a sign I’m sorry, but this is going to be a mish mash of a million things that only came to light today in their totality…
June 20, 2020 Summer in the city 2000: I was on scholarship at Princeton. Something I’d earned. When I got the news in an email at the Center for English as…
June 14, 2020 I’ve got an idea for a movie: Turning 41 You know the body swap genre? Movies in which two characters gain insight by switching bodies, or one goes forward or back in their…
May 30, 2020 No hard feelings Most nights, I rest well. I fall asleep to podcasts on astronomy or this audiobook Behave I’ve been listening to over and over. Sometimes…
May 15, 2020 El fukú y la zafa Curses are tricky things. They come on in ways you don’t see. They don’t seem like curses until you are in the middle of…
May 6, 2020 Good vibrations–autism and woo woo Autism, women and the woo woo. This. Is. Brilliant. Why don’t I look strangers in the eye? It’s super intimate. I’m not less sensitive….
April 21, 2020 The beginning is the end is the beginning: my dream about UCB Comedy this morning and the woo woo Bear with me. There be woo woo ahead. I woke up this morning feeling peaceful, which is really fucking great because I’ve been feeling…
April 19, 2020 They say it’s your birthday… I am separated from Gian, my roommate, right now. He’s at our apartment in Brooklyn, celebrating his 27th birthday in our apartment. He’s self-isolating….
April 15, 2020 Moment to myself I’ll post again. I promise. Just give me a moment to myself. I need to regroup and figure out what’s next. Thanks for checking…
March 22, 2020 Living on the edge—how Michael can save the world It feels like the world is having a ‘Come to Jesus’ moment, doesn’t it? Six months ago, people didn’t know what to make of…
September 24, 2019 When you walk through a storm, hold your head up high I’m putting this saga to bed. A whole life in just one week (October 11-20, 2018) folded up, wrapped in tissue paper and placed…
